The summer of separation

With shock I’ve just realised that my last post on this blog was nearly four months ago. And it has taken that long to feel able to write again. You see, I’ve been in a state of hibernation. I left my job and have been away from my husband for nearly two months. Oh, we haven’t separated in terms of marriage. He simply understood my need to escape and get away. To be alone for some time. That time is coming to a rapid end and I have only a few more weeks to myself. 

It has been a much needed break from everything. Time to read, to think. I’ve even had time to write, but haven’t felt able to. 

Certain episodes have taken place over the last few months that are barely worth recounting here. But, for the record, I have discovered that I am able to have a vaginal orgasm (i.e. no clitoral stimulation) for the first time in my life. That’s progress, eh? And I’ve been testing new waters – venturing into the world of BDSM. My objective is to push my boundaries and try to break out of this shell-like armour I have built. Occasionally, I do glimpse something of the old me. I’ve been practicing letting my emotions surface. Its difficult. They’ve been kept under wraps for so long. Physical pain is one way to unleash them. 

I feel calmer. Perhaps more centred, more me. Whoever that is. 

Leave a comment

Filed under General

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s